NOW ARCHIVE NOTES DLAND
my favorite entries that i've written
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06 April 2013 - 17 November 2003 We have only memories. The universe unfolds like a flower. The memory of each moment is like a single petal. 16 November 2003 you just want her to do anything to you there ain't nothing that you won't allow 15 November 2003 fade to the thought and the reason that we had to leave the valley behind 13 November 2003 the journey is the destination 03 November 2003 SEATTLE. sunlight and hills and a perfect stranger 02 November 2003 ITCHING to get out of Portland, Oregon 27 October 2003 it�s just a brief smile crossing your face 25 October 2003 thinking about how to stay out of trouble's way, flying to fall away from you all, it's over division day, beautiful division day 24 October 2003 driving around up and down division street.. i used to like it here... 24 October 2003 i feel the phantom limb... i thought i never would again 24 October 2003 and it's a long time since you cared enough for me to even be discreet 21 October 2003 soon the clues will start to reappear and the new home will reveal itself. 20 October 2003 fantasy 19 October 2003 the mythology of obscured origin 17 October 2003 hey pretty pretty 14 October 2003 why each perfumed flower, why each moment has its hour. it's you......... it's all true...... 12 October 2003 "at any time, ordinary people can find themselves, suddenly and without warning, in the presence of magic." 10 October 2003 i know you belong to everybody but you can�t deny that i�m you 06 October 2003 living the timeless life 04 October 2003 be here now 02 October 2003 stepping like a tightrope walker putting one foot after another 29 September 2003 but i couldn�t stand to see your face sent chills along my spine 26 September 2003 me and a perfect stranger 24 September 2003 mona was hungry. her dress was thin. 23 September 2003 for you i could... 22 September 2003 i am the blue-lidded daughter of sunset 21 September 2003 awareness 21 September 2003 guapa 20 September 2003 the whole world just opens up 16 September 2003 so carefully placing one foot after another on wet pavement, red shoes 14 September 2003 the essence of everything is. 13 September 2003 someone has put cries of birds on the air like jewels 12 September 2003 unfolding 10 September 2003 there were places where luxury dropped away. 09 September 2003 i can feel you taking off 07 September 2003 but none of them would meet her in the house of mystery 05 September 2003 we have 90% of what they have 10% of 01 September 2003 but once in a very long while, the traveler finds a place that he knows, never having seen it before, is the place he was seeking. the surgery of the first look. 28 August 2003 the mythology of obscured destination 27 August 2003 a sunset time 25 August 2003 ENOUGH. (or, how I learned to dream) 24 August 2003 trouble was born feet first 21 August 2003 california and what we made of it 15 August 2003 BIRTH PANGS 13 August 2003 so that's emotion, that's love, and trains, the nature of trains, and the meaning of your back to the engine, and guards, stations, platforms, wars, love, heart-rending cries 12 August 2003 i saw you waiting, saintlike, with your warning 10 August 2003 one more starlet one more time, down to make it do or die 09 August 2003 it's the same old town that bled her dry 06 August 2003 to shed this skin, be born again, it starts with an ending. 04 August 2003 strange pain, strange sin 03 August 2003 waiting for the great leap forward 01 August 2003 it's unfolding 31 July 2003 the first time i saw you i knew it would never last 31 July 2003 and we can find new ways of living, make playing only logical harm 29 July 2003 and I swear that I would follow anything-- just get me out of here. 27 July 2003 i can't go on i'll go on 26 July 2003 inside this dream 24 July 2003 landscape/ memory 22 July 2003 I just want someone to walk in front and I'll follow the leader. 22 July 2003 It is unacceptable to bite out parts of your face from inside and spit them at the blue nonstop volcano sky. 20 July 2003 i spend hours looking sideways 19 July 2003 back to the ivory tower 18 July 2003 I wish I could eat the salt off of your lost faded lips we can cap the old times, make playing only logical harm we can cap the old lines, clay-making that nothing else will change. 16 July 2003 there is always something bigger 13 June 2003 my joy is covering me... soon i will disappear 13 July 2003 love's an excuse to get hurt, and to hurt. do you like to hurt, i do, i do, then hurt me... 10 July 2003 "and i won't come down for anyone"-- (only for myself) 08 July 2003 You know the anger that language shelters, that love obeys. Those three things. Why obey. 07 July 2003 consumption is not a passion for substances but a passion for the code. 05 July 2003 how i learned to dance in my underwear and 7 inch heels 04 July 2003 "Give me a girl at an impressionable age, and she is mine for life." 02 July 2003 bite marks 31 June 2003 if you are going down it is a wall. that is my message. climb the wall. 30 June 2003 when my idol left it broke my back it broke my legs it broke clouds in the sky broke sounds i was hearing still hear 30 June 2003 on the other hand, withinness may spit you out like a glass eye. in that case, you can paint the box black and call it JUST FOR THE THRILL 29 June 2003 nightmare 28 June 2003 i keep closing my eyes and forgetting what's in front of me 26 June 2003 life and no escape -- (i hate it!) 25 June 2003 this is why we turn away 12 June 2003 you can never go home again 10 June 2003 i love Fred 09 June 2003 my arm's got a death in it 08 June 2003 you must change your life 07 June 2003 summer is what you make it 05 June 2003 i love portland 04 June 2003 reaching blindly for something you might be missing 02 June 2003 i was drawn into your magnet tar pit trap 01 June 2003 i let the heavy sunlight press me into the ground 30 May 2003 She couldn't keep her head up. She couldn't stay out of her dreams. 29 May 2003 she seemed to be thinking about something far away, waiting patiently for someone to destroy her 24 May 2003 climb the wall 22 May 2003 but it's all right, we all know how it feels. it's all right, we all knows how it ends in the needle, sitting beside her, so sewed together, nevada spider 13 May 2003 if we can break thought free of impulse slowly, slowly the day scream subsides... 12 May 2003 the beginning of the beginning 10 May 2003 time take us forward, relief from this longing 09 May 2003 lately i've been wishing i had one desire, something that would make me never want another, something that would make it so that nothing mattered, all would be clear then. -bright eyes 07 May 2003 my life is so strange 05 May 2003 the day my life turned upside down 03 May 2003 release 03 May 2003 the waiting game 01 May 2003 I chose not to choose life. I chose something else. 28 April 2003 birthday. 22. 26 April 2003 your glance is hiding in the brilliance of some star. 25 April 2003 from a dream you won't remember flashing on-- 24 April 2003 my mind is going 21 April 2003 phantasmagoria 19 April 2003 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 19 April 2003 sleep. drugs. vomit. no no no yes yes yes. 18 April 2003 i know i can't keep living in this dead or dying dream 17 April 2003 dawning 15 April 2003 RED SELF 11 April 2003 i'm not scared of anything 10 April 2003 horror 09 April 2003 my strange college 08 April 2003 ideology interpellates the individual as a subject. (i love you althusser.) 07 April 2003 i sold my soul to anthropology 06 April 2003 the story where blessings of glory collide 05 April 2003 43 hours to go 04 April 2003 i love the roses in my mother's garden 04 April 2003 death 03 April 2003 There is something wrong with my mind. 02 April 2003 no news, no regrets 01 April 2003 the things that hold joy in place 31 March 2003 a play in three acts 29 March 2003 all the pretty little horses 29 March 2003 in search of lost time 27 March 2003 eternal return 26 March 2003 Addiction, like nostalgia in general, is a form of mourning 23 March 2003 we are so small between the stars, so large against the sky 22 March 2003 fill the bathtub with ice, hope this fever will break 21 March 2003 heaven is never enough 20 March 2003 i hope he never lets me down again 17 March 2003 gregor samsa died for your sins 14 March 2003 you come to a wall and it unfolds 11 March 2003 the synthesis of these contraries unfolds in the creative action of the historic subject 10 March 2003 i've got this hunger and i can't seem to get full 09 March 2003 bad actors with bad habits. some sad singers, they just play tragic 09 March 2003 playing at house 08 March 2003 wet and dark 07 March 2003 i'm done feeling like a skeleton, no more sleep walking dead 06 March 2003 nothing is true; everything is permitted 04 March 2003 this bell-stroke of noon and of the great decision 03 March 2003 we became what we wanted to be, like a dream, or a ghost 02 March 2003 noa noa 27 February 2003 we'll need something to remind us of all the sweetness that has passed through us. 26 February 2003 there's a dream in my brain that just won�t go away 23 February 2003 permitted to promise 22 February 2003 i am the late fruit 21 February 2003 asymptote: the rising breaking emotion 20 February 2003 we live by tunneling for we are people buried alive 18 February 2003 you would settle for anything 16 February 2003 I AM EVERYTHING 14 February 2003 all that is solid melts into air 13 February 2003 concretely in a tiny glass picture you dance. 12 February 2003 I told you when I came I was a stranger 10 February 2003 we told her she was beautiful, we told her she was free. but none of us would meet her in the house of mystery 08 February 2003 looking kind of spooky and withdrawn, like he could be underwater 07 February 2003 it's a question of not letting what we've built up crumble to dust 03 February 2003 all sins are attempts to fill voids 01 February 2003 la mu�eca 29 January 2003 never got cold wearing nothing in the snow 28 January 2003 no one knows, i live in a dream 27 January 2003 tabula rasa 25 January 2003 to complete the design 24 January 2003 i'm going to try for the kingdom if i can 19 January 2003 how to stop time 16 January 2003 My joy is covering me, soon I will disappear 13 January 2003 halcyon and on and on (i exist) 12 January 2003 war lies in the origins of the picturesque 09 January 2003 clothing was simple, they dressed in hunger and woe. 08 January 2003 no context 07 January 2003 nothing belongs to us except in our memories 05 January 2003 love letters 04 January 2003 there was never a time when i did not exist 03 January 2003 at this moment everything looks clear to me, but what happened just before? 01 January 2003 real events for the imagination 28 December 2002 WE'RE FUCKING GOING TO SAN FRANCISCO ON ACID 28 December 2002 the end of december, i'm writing you now just to see if you're better 25 December 2002 a thrill of hope the weary world rejoices, for yonder breaks a new and glorious morn! 21 December 2002 potlatch 21 December 2002 love for three clementines 20 December 2002 the asymptote, the high pitched blinding roar 19 December 2002 it's about how broad your gaze is and how close in you are. 17 December 2002 the vertigo of an honest world 16 December 2002 resistance 16 December 2002 i love le corbusier 15 December 2002 it's the mood that i'm in, that left us back where we began 14 December 2002 the radiant city 12 December 2002 nostalgia, architecture, and revolution 11 December 2002 in praise of character in the bleak inhuman lonliness 11 December 2002 something that you feel will find its own form 10 December 2002 my boyfriend's back, he's gonna save my reputation 09 December 2002 the violence inherent to the system 07 December 2002 portland is my babylon 06 December 2002 in tranced fixation dreaming upon object before you 05 December 2002 aqua marine 04 December 2002 a spectre is haunting europe 03 December 2002 cold wind 01 December 2002 "those were the good old days: we had everything except money" -this american life 29 November 2002 at the promenade 28 November 2002 keep track of every day the date emblazoned in yr morning 26 November 2002 the rush 25 November 2002 winter 23 November 2002 you say she's waiting and i know what for 21 November 2002 shadow catcher 20 November 2002 trapped in the periphery 19 November 2002 big toy -- human horse dog -- suicide bridge 14 November 2002 city playground 11 November 2002 the outside on the inside 11 November 2002 oranges and lemons 10 November 2002 there's a certain search for certainty you know we'll never see 09 November 2002 wet/cold 05 November 2002 things which enclose me, or which i cannot touch because they are too near 05 November 2002 i'm taking the cure 04 November 2002 your body still remembers things you told it to forget 03 November 2002 happy birthday to donna 01 November 2002 cast your fate to the wind 31 October 2002 "becky never blinks" 28 October 2002 the night's a spill, a permanent stain; the city soaks in silence 26 October 2002 party for the people of the open wound 24 October 2002 the city is high, and we could lose ourselves 24 October 2002 it may have come and gone, at least we saw it once and it wasn�t lost on anyone 23 October 2002 depth of field 22 October 2002 is it your fear of being buried that makes you so afraid to speak? 20 October 2002 i want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk 18 October 2002 we're talented and bright-- we've found some lovely ways to disappoint 16 October 2002 hold on to the corners of today 15 October 2002 certain gardens are described as retreats when they are really attacks 13 October 2002 deep play: a story they tell themselves about themselves 12 October 2002 all the way back home i'm telling you i caught the sun creeping up behind my shoulder, another day's begun 11 October 2002 i need to find my tribe 10 October 2002 the vertigo of a flawless world 08 October 2002 let's just keep touching, let's just keep singing. 08 October 2002 death 06 October 2002 good night moon 05 October 2002 bolero 04 October 2002 help, i can't sleep anymore 03 October 2002 anthropology 211, paper #1 30 September 2002 i need a totem. 30 September 2002 halfway through the middle of the night 29 September 2002 i need a catalyst 28 September 2002 the sunlight's so oppressive today. 27 September 2002 anthropology is necessarily a science of boundaries 26 September 2002 the death of the author 23 September 2002 having looked for a hollow among the thickest pines, we make a fresh camp there. the wind blows on us, and we, rather tired, lie down and keep listening to the rustling pines until we fall asleep. 22 September 2002 beneath it is all dark, it is all spreading 19 September 2002 |
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