i got up at 5 this morning to take todi to the bus station. when we got there we realized we had to repack the stuff, cause his box weighed 140 pounds and the weight limit was 60! so we had to buy boxes and pay to have extra luggage underneath the bus. and he just barely got the 7:30 bus. then i had to walk really far with his guitar and some stuff we couldn't pack (because we had 20 lbs too much stuff). i came home and slept for a while, and woke up to a lovely summer day.. i wore a skirt and sandals and went on the porch. jared and i sat in the sun on a blanket until i got too hot, and came inside. donna and dave went to downtown.
i feel tired and i have a headache, and my muscles hurt from walking so much yesterday. i'm so glad it's warm though. it feels like a summer day when i was young, no school, and my parents at work.. having the house to myself and just lying around doing nothing. maybe if my headache goes away i'll ride my bike somewhere. todi and his stuff are gone. my room is empty and light feeling and the windows are open. i want to sell and give away a bunch of my stuff, i feel like i have too much.
gabe called and said they got caught trying to hop the train in minneapolis, so they're going to try hitchhiking.. i hope they get here. i was really looking forward to seeing him in a few days. people coming and going.
"his boy's body sways in the wind. two hundered and ten million years of desire wash through me. men know almost nothing about desire, they think it has to do with sexual activity or can be discharged that way. but sex is a substitute, like money or language. sometimes i just want to stop seeing."
[anne carson]