i fell asleep accidentally last night, in all my clothes, with the lights on, and woke up at 5 am when he fell in bed next to me. i turned over and saw his face but i didn't recognize him at first. everything looked glowing. he had feathers in his hair. i said, "oh, i guess i fell asleep. where were you?" then he said, "what are you going to do if i fall in love with you?"
i wish i could record everything he says.
he tells me to be honest. completely open. i've never done this before. i guess he hasn't either.
awareness is THE drug. as donna says.
the other night at 3 am we walked to the park and played on the playground and trees. it was a silent, windless night. i took him back past the secret garden, but it was too dark to see it properly. everything was so quiet. we tiptoed for a while so we didn't make a sound. we whispered in the street. then he picked up a handfull of gravel and threw it in the air, and we listened to it hit the ground, like rain. i said, "that sound has a shape."
now the overcast light is coming in the window and he's lying in my bed asleep, dreaming. he said something a few minutes ago but i couldn't understand. what will i do...