someone should stop me from doing silly things like ordering weakerthans tshirts off the internet at 2 am. i really don't know. it was only $12 though. i'm in love with john k sampson. (haven't you heard??)

this morning i took the bus to school and managed to be on time for class for the first time in forever. i felt respectable for a moment. usually i burst in out of breath and make a lot of noise getting my stuff out and there's nowhere to sit. we talked about meta-narratives. don't you just wish it were possible? an all-encompassing structure that accounts for everything and and reveals Truth and Beauty and Justice? well you're out of luck (or you were born a century and a half too late). foucault says so. but then he accidentally made his own metanarrative. oops.

so then we were talking about an article by lyotard, and how everything is meaningless because it's futile to search for truth or meaning when none exists, we can't make judgements or be certain of anything, and i was pretty sure we should all just lie down and die... but someone in my class reassured me by saying 'well you don't have to buy his argument. you cannot not do anything. you cannot not look for meaning. everything we say refers to a metanarrative. even saying everything is meaningless.' we can create things that are meaningful within this context... it's funny, whenever people start getting upset about some extremely depressing article, that guy always jumps in and tells us we don't have to buy it.