baby let your hair hang down

today i'm wandering. yesterday, julian aquired some klonopin from c., and was giving them away. �the upstairs crew and some of the downstairs crew had some, and we all proceeded to drink wine on the porch while listening to good music and smoking. �smoking felt really good. �i think i had a few too many cigarettes, but i don't really remember. �i drew pictures of the porch, the people, andy, gabe, donna. �

love: art. each person a whole world.
wine all over the table. cigarettes, papers, flowers, chessboard. discussion in every direction. arms. hair. all the people i love here. all of our days.

let everything hit you. remove barriers. remove "used to". i'm not used to anything. then, don't be afraid. let it all fall on your brain. feel everything accelerating, rolling over and over. this thing, this thing, this thing-- is falling, rolling over me. let it. don't resist. trust. the universe provides. press against the limit of how much you can feel in one instant.