baby let your hair hang down

i am going to vancouver next week, i'm taking the bus. �i really wanted to hitchhike to save money but i can't get over my fear of hitchhiking alone. �does anyone think that it would be ok to do that? �most people say it would be too dangerous.
i realized that this is the cushiest vacation i've taken in years. �all of my other trips involve either hitchhiking, not having anywhere indoors to sleep, not knowing anyone in the city, not having any food, or having to carry around really heavy things. �or all five. �this time i'll be taking a bus (only 8 hours), staying with friends, and i'm not dirt poor right now so i'll have money to get food. �wow. �it should be nice. �it's funny how if you deprive yourself of everything, then when you just get little things it makes you really happy.

i tried to go in a clothing store yesterday but i forgot how. �i thought that since todi's not here eating all my food, i have a bit more money, so i could get myself something, so i went in red light on hawthorne. �but it was really overwhelming. �i haven't gone shopping for about 6 months cause i haven't had the money. �i forgot how to look at stuff in a store. �it gave me a headache so i left.
it's funny, i used to go in there all the time and find cool clothes. �i'm still so much more dependent on money for happiness than i'd like to be, but i guess i'm better than before. �after i became poor i just resigned myself to never, ever, buying anything i didn't absolutely need. �i got things once in a while when i had a bit extra money or when i was visiting my parents. �but i got rid of the mindset i used to have where if i was bored, or sad, i could go buy a new record or clothes and it would make me happy.