yes. �things are looking better, or just more complicated. �yesterday i chose to forget about my classes and hide in andy's room. �he said that everything outside the room was really fast but inside it was safe. �my life was too scary, i was trying to get away from what was happening outside. �i was shaking and really nervous and afraid. �then dave came in with a large jug of wine and poured it into a silver goblet for me. �that helped. �the afternoon stretched on.
we went out on the porch and drank more wine, donna, dave, andy, jared, and i. �it was nice. �we decided it was a new holiday, seis de mayo. �or cinco de seis, as our spanish isn't very accurate. �we got progressively drunker and decided to watch some anime movie dave had. �we brought the tv outside. �i wasn't paying attention at all and i have no idea what the movie was about. �
after the movie, we decided to walk to rimsky's, with our (third) jug of wine, drinking on the sidewalk. �i took pictures of everyone walking in the low blinding sun. �there was loud drumming coming from a house near belmont, so we sat on the steps and had a cigarette and listened. �it was hypnotic. �a girl came out and talked to us and i took pictures of her. �by the time we got to rimsky's i could barely walk straight, and sitting at the table i felt dizzy and happy. �we got desserts and coffee. �we sat at the secret table that slowly goes up and down, we all knew about it except jared, cause he's new here. �at some point he realized "why is the table so much higher now?"
when we walked home the boys did cartwheels in ladd's circle. �it was cold. �i sat on the porch for a while more before i had to go. �then i went in my apartment and had to deal with my life again. �but it was ok.
le plus ca change - le plus
c'est la meme.
love, becky