"hi i was just wondering if the banner on iraqi civilian death count is supposed to be a joke. It seems kinda american way of making a joke since you are having an addiction problem, while the number of iraqi civilian death is rising up to 5000. just a thought"

i'm not sure what the connection is, but the banner isn't a joke.. if you click on it, it goes to a page where they've catalogued every incident where one or more civilians were killed, and recorded the number of deaths according to many different news sources. that's why there's a min/max, because the sources vary on how many people died each time. some of them have links to really disturbing articles about the incidents, too. anyway, maybe i'm stupid but i don't know what heroin addiction has to do with iraqi civilian deaths. and i quit 3 weeks ago. oh well.

i haven't been doing anything exciting, mostly hanging around the house reading newspapers and books or hanging out at gabe's house. i got my driver's license renewed so i can drive, but it makes me so scared and anxious to drive that i hate it. cars are evil. i don't like situations where i can't stop if i want to.